Love. Brokenness. Purity. A righteous heart. Humbled. Community. Together. Perseverance. Patience.
I feel like these have become just words. Mere words. The meaning, the value, the depth behind them has been drained. I myself find myself giving up on these "virtues" or "values." This life is hard. Pain and sufferring happen and it's hard to love. Really love. It's hard to forgive, it's hard to still seek community when you've been heart by people.
Why did Christ come to earth, live a human life, and die a sinners death...when he was innocent? Did he do it just to save us? Well, yes He did do it to save us...but why? It was because He LOVED us. He LOVES us! Sinners! Murderers of our own flesh! Christ DIED an UGLY death for us because He LOVED us! How have we lost sight of what love like that means? Why have we gotten so busy, so selfish, so wrapped up in "how we will change the world," when Love can do that??
Christians. CHRISTians. Christ. Love. For God SO LOVED THE WORLD He sent His only begotten SON so that whoever believes in Him will never die...but live eternally!!! Christ came because he LOVED us! God sent His son because He LOVED us!!! Who are we to think we can change the world without the Love and power of Christ?!
I have become so frustrated with myself because I don't love the way Christ would have me love. I give up. I get upset because I don't recieve the way I'd have it, so I give up. How selfish is that?! No more.
If we (Christians) can grasp the concept of loving in a Christ like manner (no...that doesn't just mean loving platonically...it means truly loving...no matter the circumstances, no matter the depth of relationship, no matter any of that), we can change the world. If we do what we were made to do, and spread the Love of Christ instead of our own human love which is beyond puny in comparison...the world will see.
We were made for community. We were made to be there for one another. Man was not meant to live alone. We were made to help one another, to love one another, no matter what. Life isn't about being happy all of the time as so many people today think it is. It's not about living for yourself..doing all of the fun things you can think of, achieving the goals of our life for yourself. It's not about that. It's about Christ, and it's about others. Oh the way Americans live makes me so upset. Alone and isolated. Living for ourselves. Making a living just to survive and do things for our own enjoyment. (I'm so guilty of this). Making so little time for others. Hardening our hearts to make life easier. No no no. Christ, touch my heart...even if that means I'll feel the pain that You feel sometimes.
Self care. Necessary. Fun. Necessary. A light and joyous heart. Necessary.
But that's not all, and that's not the bigger picture.
Why can't we see beyond ourselves?
OOO I've just been SO frustrated with myself and the general Christian population for how WEAK, SELFISH, and without the MIND OF CHRIST we've become. CHRISTianity is about CHRIST. Not about ourselves. As I write this I have a giant lump in my throat because I'm just so upset about what Christianity has become, and how lacking we are in our understanding of Love, Christ, and the great commision. We get these jobs (lots of them because we "want to help others"), but who are we really serving? Usually ourselves. We take pride in helping others. No no no. We shouldn't take pride in that. We can't boast in anything but our Lord. We can boast because CHRIST helped someone, saved someone, enabled us to do something great. But it's not for our own glory. Life's not about glorifying humans. It's about humans loving and serving our God. Humans loving other humans because God so Loved us...
I want to love. I want a servants heart. I want to leave this world and leave the legacy that I loved because I had Jesus in my heart. I want people to know how much I loved them, but more importantly I want them to know why I loved them so. I want people to see that Love changes things. Love changes hearts, lives, situations. Love can do these things because it is the Love of Christ and through Christ we can do anything. True love is selfless. Relentless. Compassionate. Saving. CHRISTlike. I beg God for a loving heart because I'm so sick of my own human heart!
Lord,
I give up so easily. I'm so weak. Father, forgive me for making things all about me. Give me your heart and a clean spirit. Give me wisdom and grace. Show me what Love is. Show me my heart for what it is. Break my heart for what breaks Yours Lord. God I want Your heart. In Jesus' name I pray these these things. Amen.
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